If I’m Honest…

As I have gotten older, I feel that my relationship with Christ has become more routine. If I am being honest, I have felt stuck for a very long time. It is very easy to go through the motions. If we are not careful, christianity will become a mundane routine that we do more out of habit than actual devotion and love for Jesus. 

I am tired of being a routine christian. Enough is enough. I want more of Christ. I want Him to fill me up. I want to practice His love. I want to understand His plan. I am tired of short prayers. I am tired of missing devotions. I am tired of missing what Jesus has for me because I have become numb to His voice. I believe transparency is important, and that is why I decided to write this post. Maybe there is someone out there like me who has been struggling to get on track spiritually. You feel like you are stuck. You have days where you feel like God is a million miles away. I know how you feel. I have been challenged to dig a little deeper. This week I started a study of first Peter. First Peter is full of instruction for us as Christians and every passage has been speaking to my heart. 

I have never been good at devotions. If you are like me you probably read the passage and then think,” Now what?” I have decided to take my time. I always thought that the more you read the better. However I am finding that even if you read thirty chapters, if you get nothing from it there was no point in reading it.  I am trying to take my time on one chapter. I write down words that I don’t understand so that I can look them up later. Since I have been taking my time, at least one thing will stand out to me each devotion. It is amazing how much God has that He wants to tell you, but if you are rushing through it or putting quantity over quality, you will never get the message. 

I am not writing any of this to make myself sound spiritual. I am writing this with the hope of reaching someone who has been struggling like myself. I am trying to be open and honest about myself. I have been spiritually stuck. I have been routine. I have been discouraged. I have decided that I cannot stay there anymore. I am so excited for all that God is doing. I am excited for all He has shown me and all that He is going to show me. 

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

1 Peter 1:7

That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.


Camping 2018

My darling and I took our first camping trip together last week. I had not been camping since I was a young teen, so I was surprised to find out how much work camping is! Setting up a tent, blowing up a mattress, building a fire….it’s not that easy for some green campers like us! But we still had lots of fun together in the beautiful Hanging Rock State Park. We arrived a little late on our first day, but we did manage to hike down to the falls, which was beautiful and so refreshing! After the falls, we headed back to start fixing some supper. Everyone knows you don’t get a whole lot of sleep when you camp, and I’m pretty sure I heard a bear outside the tent. So after about five hours of sleep, we decided to hike the rock. And y’all……I found out how miserably out of shape I am. Seriously, workouts start tomorrow. I thought my actual lungs were going to fall out. Regardless, we made it to the top and the view was well worth the climb. 

Being married is seriously the best thing. There is nothing like a couple of days in the forrest to bring you closer together. ;) I love my best friend. 

P.S.- Thank you for protecting me from the possible bear, poisonous spider, and for letting me have the last drop of water in the canteen. 

It’s true love people.


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